FUCK YOU.

So. That went well.

*pfffttt*

How can someone say such hurtful things to someone and expect to still be their friend? Seriously? WHERE IS YOUR LOGIC, SIR?

"You know what? I don't even really like you anymore. What am I doing?"

"You're fucking disgusting."

"You look really pretty tonight. Wanna come play pool? Fine, FUCK YOU, get your shit the fuck out of my house."

I figure I'm gonna work my ass off this week. Pick up some extra shifts, hopefully. Then on Friday I'm gonna start overhauling my car. Oil change and new brakes to start. Next paycheck I'm gonna fix my CV joint again. I don't get how that fucker keeps going out so fast.

Tomorrow after work I'm ridding my car of all traces of you. It fucking REEKS of fermented booze in there because shit kept getting spilled. So I have to vacuum the shit out of it and steam clean the carpet. I'm so fucking sick of smelling booze every time I get into my car, just because YOU couldn't fucking wait to get somewhere to start/continue drinking. I still can't believe how many empty beer cans were in my trunk after I unloaded all my shit out of it today.

Now that I think about it, there really were a shit-ton of things wrong in our relationship. I just wish I could let the fuck go of memories still fresh in my mind from TWO WEEKS AGO when you still loved me. I don't fucking get you. At all. Everything's TerryTerryTerry and there's no fucking room for anyone else.

I'm such a fucking masochist. I hate it.

You know what, though? I actually get to start hanging out with MY friends now (the ones I didn't live with, that is). I haven't seen Chivahn since our shoot in December. I've only seen Mike a handful of times since around January and only for like 5 minutes to an hour each time. And I haven't seen Chelsey since October. All because I was so goddamn busy driving your ass around whenever you had to/felt like going somewhere. I've been hanging out with Alli, but that was just because she lives right down the street from the apartment. If she had lived any farther than that, I wouldn't have been able to see her at all.

So you know what? FUCK YOU. I'll be just fine.