So it's been an interesting and painful past couple weeks. My relationship with Terry has been tested with sobriety, jealousy, and ultimately betrayal by a girl I thought was an extremely good friend. Turns out she's just as bad, if not WORSE than all the other people I've kicked to to curb over the years. I saw all the signs, heard everything everyone was saying about her for the last 4 years, but thought that somehow *I* would be different. That she actually cared about me. Nope. Just another goddamn doormat to wipe her filthy stilettos on.
I'm really going to have to start being more careful. All these 'friendships' have been exactly the same. I'll admit, I'm very, very attracted to super-outspoken, outgoing, ambitious and slightly obnoxious people because I wish *I* could be more like that. But they all tend to covet everything I have and fuck me over in the end. That's done with. And I'm really going to stop being such a passive fuck. ESPECIALLY if someone flirts with/says inappropriate things to my man. I used to think there was no logical reason for me to flip out on people for this, but I guess there really is. He's MINE. He's with ME. NOT YOU. I think it's really sad that there are some people out there who have to be reminded of this. Just because you can't have him doesn't mean you can get a little taste by using sexual innuendo and jumping all over him. Do you think I'm stupid? Do you think I can't see that you're throwing yourself at MY MAN with thoughts in your head of fucking the shit out of him with no fucking regard to my goddamn feelings? How the fuck would YOU feel if you saw the same thing happening in front of you? Wait, you already KNOW how that feels.
We've been tested and we've SURVIVED. And NO ONE is going to fuck this up for us. NO ONE.
Us: WIN.
You: FAIL. For coveting something that's not yours and almost destroying it EXACTLY the way the same thing was destroyed for you.
Goodbye.
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