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Been a while, huh?

The past couple weeks have been a terrible conglomeration of breaking up (for the LAST fucking time), breaking down at work over and over, general angst and depression, being broke, drunk half of the time, hungover the other half and fucking hating life. Wooo.

Things are finally starting to look up. I've stopped blowing money on bullshit. The worst things I've been buying are green tea frappucinos from Starbucks. HEH. Which are totally fucking expensive, but I'm looking at it like this: even if I were to buy one every work day (which I don't), that's about $9 less daily than I would be spending on Monsters. So there ya go.

It's been three weeks since I've had a Monster or any kind of energy drink, by the way. I'm pretty sure I've gained like 5+ pounds. I haven't weighed myself yet, but I can tell because my Daredevils are getting tighter. Goodbye, size 23.

On the job front: I'm miserable as usual and every day I walk into that store I feel one day closer to death. BUT. I have an interview today somewhere that's willing to pay me $1.33 more to, basically, NOT have an ongoing nervous fucking breakdown at work. If this pans out I'm going to be SO much happier.

On the Terrence front: I'm fucking over it. Yes, I love him. But I can't deal with the flip-flopping between "I love you/I could care less if you're around" shit. So I'm letting him go. I've come to realize that he hasn't wanted to be with me for about 7 months. He's never going to be right with himself and therefore is never going to be right with me. If you love someone you don't pull their fucking emotions around like that. We are never, ever getting back together and it's with the utmost positivity and relief that I say that. I'm done being the safe bet. DONE. Because that's all I was. And I'm done with boys indefinitely. I've already got everybody who thinks I'm amazing and actually wants me around and I'm sick of having my fucking heart trampled.

So that very epic chapter of my life is over. We had some beautiful times, but they're over. I think letting go of that has been my biggest problem in the past.

So today. Shower. Get pretty. Pick up Aaron at 12:30-ish. Go to our group interview. Pick up Mike from work. ??? PROFIT.

I was thinking Neighbours. Maybe. We shall see where the day takes us.