FUCKING DO SOMETHING!

I also really think I need to go to school for something. Anything. And soon.

I think I've finally hit that elusive 'idealistic' phase of my life. Fuck, where have you been?!?!

Maybe it has to do with the inclusion and exclusion of certain people in my life. I've accomplished a lot (for me, at least) since Terry came back into the picture. I've finally found my fucking muse, I swear to christ. Now I can't stop thinking about the future and how I'm gonna be broke as fuck for the rest of my life if I just sit still from here. I want to live comfortably. With him. I want to fix my teeth. I want a gorgeous house with a studio in it so I can listen to his genius all day. And I want it all NOW.

Yep. I need to go to school, guys. But what the fuck for? I want to do everything. I just need to start getting ambitious about it and figure out what to jump into first. I want to do makeup. I want to be a cosmetologist. I want to be an esthetician. I want to be an IT technician. I want to build websites. I want my own store (but for what?). I want to design and make lingerie and shoes. I want to be an internet entrepreneur.

I FUCKING WANT IT ALL.

Now I'm not gonna be able to stop thinking about all this. I'm not gonna be able to sit still. I need to do SOMETHING other than make (practically) minimum wage in a stockroom with no room for the kind of growth I'M looking for.

I have to do something.