Guh.

I wish I had just like... 20 more dollars. Then I could go see my lovely for a moment tonight. But no. I miss him so effing bad.

At mom's. Had today off. But no one's home and I dunno how much longer I can just sit here by myself. I've just been burning cds and washing my hoodie. Heh. Amazing how fast a brand new white hoodie can get grungy as fuck.

I have to go put $10 in my gas tank. Then I have to effing pray that one of the nearby Safeways has 4-packs of Monster for under $6. Or maybe I'll just swing by WinCo on the way home. And I'm almost out of smokes. That... fucking blows.

Ugh. I don't wanna go home. Only two more days. I have to keep repeating that just to last until Friday. Friday = a normal-ish paycheck and my Terry. Maybe then I'll be happy again. Heh.

I wanna drive. For no reason. Anywhere. To Camano Island, to Northgate, to California, ANYWHERE. But nope. Only have enough gas money to get back to Marysville, then back and forth to work until Friday. Effin' hell.