"CALM DOWN! JUST CALM DOWN!"

This schedule is fuckin' killing me. Noon-9 almost every day this week. That means I either have to get off work and wait 40 minutes for a bus or walk home. I generally choose the latter. But today! Jessie drove by and stopped and hollered and gave me a ride home. Yay. I loves her.

I really need my goddamn license.

And I'm hungry. Guh. Want. Soda.

I miss my baby and I can't see him until like Saturday. SAD.

I'ma go purchase a soda from the laundry room. Yep.

OH! And I came across this on my domain a few minutes ago and it made me so happy. But GODDAMNIT I MISS MY TERRY. AND MY CHEV. GUH!



Heeee.

DO NOT SHOOT YOUR MEATLOAF.

Ooooo I ordered a card reader last night for like $12 including shipping. This makes me happy. 'Cause now I can actually take non-camera phone pictures again. The cats have demolished the cable to my Samsung, so I haven't been able to get pictures off it for months. I'm very excited. Yessss. Been meaning to get one for a while now. Woooo.

Stretched my scheduled five hour shift into 8 hours today. Glory. Now my paycheck's only gonna be 8 hours short. Christ.

I AM GONNA END THESE GODDAMN CATS. UGH.

I'm sad. I don't get to see my Terry at all this week unless he wants to come over late as fuck and pass out here. Damnit. I hate my work schedule this week. HATEIT.

In other news! This is the best thing I've ever seen. EVER. Thanks, baby!

TRAFFIC-STOPPING INK!!!!

Wow. So I was walking back to the apartment from the 76 about a half hour ago and I got stopped by this dude on a motorcycle. About the tattoo on my calf. HEH. I was all freaked out that he was gonna try and hit on me or something 'cause I'm wearing Sarah's teeny shorts. He wanted to know where I got it and how much something like that would run him. Very weird, indeed.

Now I can add 'stopped on the street about ink by middle-aged biker' to my list of:

-crossing State via Grove with Sarah and getting "EMOS!!!!" screamed at us along with a poorly executed finger ('cause we BLEED fucking angst!!! HEH!).
-walking down 88th with Sarah whilst video blogging for no apparent reason and getting hollered at by an SUV full of guys right before they stopped at the light at State and switched cars with some of their buddies. Very odd. (video coming soon!)
-walking down State with Sarah and getting hollered at by lesbians. That one was good.

I'm sure there's more. Heh.

Anyhow. Mommy stopped by and I handed her a wad of cash and weeee. My loan will officially be paid off two paychecks from now. Maybe even one! I DUNNO! But it's exciting.

Yooooy. Then Terry's gonna come kidnap my ass and we're going STREAKINGGGG!!! NO! Swimming! Heh. BRING YOUR GREEN HAT!

Weird mood out of nowhere.

Goddamnit.

I feel like a horrible piece of crap. I really need to learn how to manage my time better. I'm honestly not avoiding anyone. I've just been really consumed with a ridiculously inconsistent work schedule, stress at work, dirty house, Terry, trying to prove to everyone that I can do this on my own, etc. If I had my license this wouldn't be such a problem, so I'm really gonna have to go do that. There are no excuses for why I haven't done it already. Ugh.

I'm really sorry, you guys. I suck. But I really do love you all.

ASS. Selling ass for heroin! ASSSS!!!

The house is now halfway in shambles. Heh. I can't really bring myself to clean the rest of it. Such as the kitchen. That motherfucker can wait. Heh. I can't believe I was actually able to walk my ass to the 76 for liquid crack-cocaine. Heh. I'll wait for that to kick in and then finish this place off. And by 'finish this place off', I mean 'burn this motherfucker down'. Shoot it in the face and not in a good way. Yup.

Speaking of burning my house down. Heh. Anyone want a goddamn kitten? We've got two we're getting rid of. And mommy. Key-Key has GOT to go. If not, then off to NOAH with them. 'Cause we really can't deal with or even afford to take care of five cats.

Ummm... yeah. I'm thinking I'm gonna need to get off my ass again soon and hop on a bus to Walmart for some cd-rs. I've needed some horribly for the last few months but I've been putting it off for forever. And I forgot to get some last night while I was illegally purchasing booze for Tomeka. Heh! Forgot the cd-rs but remembered the effing mayo. Good times.

I love... pants.

Okay. I need to go and re-calculate my budget and then maybe leave. And buy stuff. And burn this motherfucker down. Your face.

"FUCK YOU! GIMME A CIGARETTE!" *heh*

Well. That was fun.

Terry and I went to this party with some bands in Lake Stevens Saturday night. The cops started showing up right after the first band started playing. Heh. So everyone's shitfaced and the cops are waiting to bust drunk drivers at the end of the driveway, so no one can leave. Glory. Many many beers and an asskicking later (Toby and Terry beat the hell out of this beligerent asshole who was trying to start shit with a passed out Little Toby), Terry and I went back to his truck to try and go to sleep. I was sitting in the drivers seat with an unconscious Terry head in my lap. And I didn't sleep AT ALL. I sat there shivering to death for about 5-6 hours. Finally 7am rolled around, the cops were long gone and Terry woke up and was able to drive me home so I could get a couple hours sleep before I had to go to work at noon. HEH!

Other than all the shit, the party was pretty badass.

Work today sucked. End of story.

I'm sad. I didn't realize that I had tomorrow and Tuesday off. I DON'T WANT THOSE EFFING DAYS OFF. Guh.

I'm gonna sleep so goddamn good tonight. Then I'm gonna wake up and clean the everlasting shit out of this place. 'Cause it's pretty gnarly.

Garg. I miss muh babeh.

AHMFUG!

I'm up early for work for the first time in MONTHS. YAY! What was different this morning? I had to pee so fucking bad, I'm surprised I didn't piss in my bed last night. Heh. And miraculously, I got a text from my lovely at the same time. Heh. Leaving my phone clear across my room is helpful.

Yay. So I getta just sit and blehhhh for a couple more minutes before I leave to catch the bus. Woooo.

New visiting manager this week. We'll see how that goes.

Smokie-time.